it's easy to quit-it takes faith to go through!

Well, i am proudly say that 6months na ako sa work :) hooray! well based from my past working experience hindi talaga ako nagtatagal ng 6months sa work, that's why i am really happy and blessed na tumagal ako with this work(makaemote ako kala mo taon na e) haha. big deal kasi talaga, well actually i tend to quit for several times din sa work ko na ito.

Reasons;

1. time - (family time, me time, fellowship time) i am working for almost 24hrs. as in parang sa office na ako nakatira.

2. money- i felt that the salary is so unfair. parang di na worth it yung pagod sa nakukuha kong TF.

sobrang big deal sa akin ng family time, as in simple bonding importante sa akin but super sad na i can't be with them especially now naka-apartment ako. as in once a month lang yung chance na makauwi ako.

and my fellowship time, i have my dgroup in CCF every thursday but because of my unpredictable time in work, i missed all the topics and gatherings with them. did i also mentioned that me and my high school friends also had our dgroup every friday? and i was the one na kumokontak sa lahat ng friends namin to attend our gathering. but how will i contact them if i was the one who's not there? that's why di na nagtuloy tuloy yung dgroup namin T.T

next is yung salary, actually sa sobrang desperate ko dahil di ako nakakaipon i accept the offer na magkaroon pa ng 2 raket inside our company. i mean legal na raket ha. haha kaya nagbabalance ako ng time literally. :(

but if you're asking bakit di pa ako magresign? well i also considered na nageenjoy ako sa work ko. masaya ko sa ginagawa ko. nakakapagod, yes! but i dont know. i just remembered when i resigned from my previous company i ask God to put me where He wants me to be, that He's in charged and he's my boss and i am allowing Him and his plans to be done in my life. nasa prayer request ko yung work then i am really grateful na super galing lang ni God na after few months He gave this work to me. kaya naconvict ako na ngayong may work ako gusto ko na naman magresign parang napaka disrespectful kay God. kaya when i always have the feeling of giving up,  i always ask God to provide me strength para magpatuloy and to show me His perfect plans kung bakit niya ako nilagay dito. i really want to experience His power and greatness in my life. kung yung work ko na ito yung ginagamit niya, then i want to become able and willing for Him. to let His will be done. i submit myself to God and i really believe that He wants the best for me. kaya i know that i am in good hands and nothing to worry about. 

galing nga ni God e, while i am writing this blog naisip ko naging time din for reflection on how much i love my family, i treasured them more than before na lagi ko sila nakakasama. mas nagiging big deal sa akin yung time that i am with them kasi minsan ko lang sila makasama.  yung ''me time'' ko reflection ko din How great my God is. dahil independent na ko, mas naeexperience ko yung time with God. yung mga nagagawa at kaya niyang gawin sa buhay ko, i become more dependent to Him. then yung fellowship time ngayon super uhaw lang ako na makipag fellowship. like last time i really tried humabol sa dgroup, then when i came, kakatapos lang closing prayer nila. gusto ko umiyak, di dahil sayang yung biniyahe ko e, naiiyak ako kasi wala ako naabutang topic, wala ako naabutan sharing ng words of God and it makes me sad. grabe lang pagkauhaw ko sa knowledge about God. which leads me to seek Him more. 

money? sad ako dahil di pa rin ako nakakaipon and feeling ko talo ako sa salary, but then God told me "wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord"- Psalms 27:14   God teach me to wait. if my Lord wants me to wait, i will wait :) i am looking forward for His reward but more than that i'll be focus on my attitude and who i become while waiting for Him.

Hindi po ako cameraman. nagfe-feeling marunong lang :)

but now i want to thank God for this job. and for strengthening me for the past 6months. now i am asking Him again for another days, months and years again to supply all my needs. because i believe that i can't do it alone, i am useless! but I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME -Philippians 4:13

I learned that it's easy to leave when you're strong, but it's hard to give up when you know you gave it all :)

it's easy to quit-it takes faith to go through!