I Once became an Inspiration

Everyone can be an inspiration :)

My Failure and disappointments in life makes me weak! i really hate disappointments, especially to my family! i dont want to disappoint them for any reasons!  but i admit that even though i hate and i dont want to experience that, i still experienced that!

My last year in college, its almost perfect! im so excited to graduate.. me and my mom has plans already! im excited to wear my black toga and to go to PICC, (i assume to have flying colors as well because i got the grades to retain my scholarship from my org, in short i have a good grades. but i didn't expect too much, for me it's just a bonus!) But i didn't make it! because in my first semester of 4thyear, I got FAILED in my Thesis subject which is pre-requisite for THESIS2 that we have to take for 2nd semester. so meaning i can't take my thesis 2! there's no any offer but to extend Another year in my university and take it! it's hard for me! the fact that the title of my thesis and our chosen topic is about my own Organization which is FTG! and at that time i was the President of that org, so i all have the instruments for that study, i know the background. but I FAILED! 58. something or maybe 59 is my grade and the passing is 60! just because I missed the quiz! i cried.. (Literally Dying) ! i lost everything! i got all my plans turn to zero! DISAPPOINTED BIGTIME! i wanted to quit! (NG DAHIL SA ISANG SUBJECT! NG DAHIL SA ISANG REQUIREMENT SINIRA LAHAT NG PANGARAP KO! HINDI BA NILA NAISIP NA MAY MGA PANGARAP NA PWEDENG MASIRA! TAONG UMAASA AT INAASAHAN) even i shout this in a loudest voice! There's nothing I can do! but, thanks to my God! He guide me, He's with me in times of trouble! i lose hope but i found it on him! he gain my strength. he renew it actually! my family helps me also, they didn't show me the sadness but they show me how to fight! and not to give up! they offer me the message and the words of the Lord! "DIBA MAY LORD KA? OH BAKIT KA SUMUSUKO!-Mama" AKALA KO NAMAN KUNG ANO NA NAGYARI SAYO! GRADES LANG YAN! WALANG GRADE SA LANGIT! DI MO KAYLANGAN-kuya bj

so that day i decided to write! to speak up and to shout the hurts and how i am lifted up by those words from the lord and from my family. so i made a note entitled "EPIC FAIL, THESIS CONFESSION". I just posted it on facebook, i didn't do that to impress others nor neither to inspire others but to confess the emotion. then i got many LIKES and COMMENTS.. they all trying to cheer me up! saying that they love me, na okay lang yan! everything... but there is someone that i can never be forgotten!

she made a write ups about me! she made a blog telling how she's so much inspired in me. how that post change her point of view towards the situation. her name is FRANCES ARTIAGA (a bright and lovely girl) when i saw it, GOSH (speechless) IS DIS FOR REAL??:)  i was very flattered! i just see myself smiling for a long time. it says there that (partial)

HER SMILE, paints a million words, expresses thousands of thoughts, and touches hundreds of emotions. ;)

I was feeling down that day. Thinking there was no hope, i sat and stared blankly at my room. I suddenly felt the urge of opening my facebook account. And there it was, the inspiration that lifted me from hopelessness. 

http://popayaiden.tumblr.com/page/2 (just check her tumblr account)

she thought that i wake her up for that emotion and realization but she didn't know that i am the one who lifted up on what she did! it makes me realize that HEY! THERE'S SOMEONE WHO BELIEVES IN YOU! someone whom you can touch and inspired for somehow! and if you can do that how much more to others?? :) SHARE THE WORD OF GOD! INSPIRE OTHERS ON HOW DOES THE LORD WORKS IN YOUR LIFE! FOR HE IS GREAT AND MIGHTY! i know that there's a lot of hearts that we can touch too.. to show how wonderful, how perfect and beautiful our God is :)

God is good! God is real! HE IS WORKING! that time i know he prepared everything! for me and to her to understand our situation. He used me to bring him Glory! but in return He makes me more flattered and thankful :) God is good! he wants us all SHINE upon of his glory :) YOU ARE BETTER THAN ME GOD! YOU DESERVE ALL THE PRAISES AND HONOR FROM US! ALL THE RECOGNITION :) THANKS GOD! :) i love you JESUS! MY LORD AND SAVIOR! THANK YOU..